Relationships Woes

Alright now E-Town this has nothing to do with anything that has happened in the last 6-7 years but I just had to say something. As most of you know I'm doing a bit of moving so that also entails alot of cleaning and sorting which is how I came across this gem. About 7 years ago during summer break some friends and I were driving crazily down a shoreline road by some fishing town. We were drinking of course and I decided to stand up out the sun roof. Well we ended up hitting some guy crossing the road and I took a bit of a knock to my torso but when all was said and done the guy we hit was dead. With our bright futures in front of us we tossed his body into the ocean, I'm pretty sure it was the Atlantic. Well everything was fine until the next summer when I got this note.

(I'll blog it out if it's too hard to read, so skip down)

Alright I posted it and when I looked it over it took to much effort to read so here it is exactly as it's written on paper,

Patrick,

Do you enjoy pushing her away? Do you enjoy neglecting her? I know you don't know me but I'm only informing her of the truth and pretty soon she'll realize that what I will be telling her in my letters is true and she'll leave you and then you'll finally realize how special she is. I have a few questions. Do you even tell her how important she is to you? I bet you don't. Are you there for her when she needs you? Or are you too busy playing sports? I bet you're playing sports. Did you find out about my first letter on Friday or has she had to wait until today when you decided to grace her with your presence? I bet she has to tell you today. By now you want to kill me but sorry neither of you know me so it won't be happening. Mainly what I'm trying to tell you is one day you'll wake up and realize that she is one in a million and you'll never have anyone that special ever again. But it will be too late because she'll be sick of you neglecting her and she'll be gone. Honestly I hope that happens because if this is the way you treat your girlfriend then she is better off without you. Think about it if you care about you relationship at all, cause if you don't gaurd your turf someone will move in, take over and do it very happily. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe she really does like you, maybe you treat her differently when you're alone, but why are you afraid to show it to everyone else? One more questions. does she like roses? I think I may get her one for Valentines Day. You know what, If I'm right, you don't even care about what I have said to you in this note.

from your girlfriends admirer.

p.s. why don't you give her up now instead of losing her and looking like a fool, sure you'll hurt her, but then she'll be able to move on to someone better.

(Well that's that, but did that son-of-a-bitch call me a fool?)

As you can tell it has nothing to do with us hitting that guy but with one of my past relationships. Now anyone who reads this blog and happened to catch "I Will Always Be the Worst" knows that I've got a terrible track record when it comes to relationships. Well I recieved this one day during lunch at O'Leary. I opened my locker to have this note fall out. I think it must have been grade 10. It goes on to say that blah blah blah, I'm a bad boyfriend, I don't deserve her, I'll never find anyone that special again, well you can read it so you know what it says.

So I read this thing over after so many years and I'm not angry, I never was, with the exception of maybe my last two relationships I've never really given damn how things turn out. Do I know who sent it? No I don't. I had a chance to find out as the constable at O'Leary looked at the footage caught on the security cameras but I just didn't care. Now there was alot of speculation amongst the crew at the time and the general consensus was that my girlfriend at the time had gotten someone to write it and send it to me to try and make me a better boyfriend. With everything going on it actually made sense, she questioned me about "the letter" before I had even told her. If that was the reason all I can say is "come on, if I'm not doing something already by choice then there's no chance I'll do it when you try and make me." I mean I'm a pretty messed up guy for the most part but that seems to be working damn fine for me so far. It does make me think though.

This note was found amongst a bunch of other "love letters" and cards from ex-girlfriends and some from girls that are/were just friends. As I think about it, it appears that I may be a very sentimental guy. I've got all these notes, letters, pictures, cards, I've even got a large clump of Francines hair that I'm making into a little Voodoo Fran. So I just have to...hahaha oh man I need a minute. I was almost able to keep writing after that clump of hair comment. I don't actually have that last one but from my perspective, thinking of you people reading it that's just damn funny. Fran I know your creeped out, now blushing, but at least now you're smiling.

Anyways I've got all this stuff from girls who have in one way of another done something ridiculous to try and get me to stay with them or get me to ask them out. When I look at these things all I can think is maybe I'm not one of the bad ones. Maybe I'm on par. Maybe all you girls are the ones that are pretty damn messed up, or maybe, just maybe, I am one of the good ones.