I Will Always Be the Worst

So this post has been deleted just as I said it would. Before deleting it entirely I just have to reiterate a few points as some people don't quite understand. This entry was not intended make anyone look bad and was not intended to hurt anyone. It was not an attempt to gain favouritism or pity from anyone. It was nothing more than simply my own attempt to put into words what I feel I have undergone in the past few months in hopes it would allow me to better understand my current inner conflict. I fully understand that no one but myself can explain or come to grips with what I'm dealing with. By posting it on this blog I had hoped to gain some insight from others as to how to deal with the situation and I appreciate the fact that this was not lost on everyone as it's evident in the comments posted by Ross and Bryan.

With that being said I will say one more time that it was not an attack on the girl in question nor an attempt to gain sympathy. I will also say that from this point anyone calling to tell me the post was in poor taste I can understand that. Anyone calling to tell me it was a "selfish act" and a "personal attack on her" I will tear into like you do to your presents on Christmas morning. I'm serious, you want to call me an asshole, I'll show you my worst and make an example of you. Alot of good things as well as bad were left out of the post. I admit to my mistakes and would assume she does too, but in the context that alot was left out of the post all I can say is that only a fool would open Pandoras Box without taking a peek first.